Thirty years ago I fell for a young woman called Lynn. One day at Sixth Form I was drawing her while she stood at an easel drawing a life model, and as I drew her I was suddenly overwhelmed by a powerful longing for her. I didn't know her very well but I had known her since we were little.
The longing went nowhere, I didn't know how to address it, but it lasted for about 3 years. But I remember about two years in, after I had got to know her better, that I one day noticed her breasts as she was walking with her friends from a cafeteria. Two whole years before I noticed something as female and sexual about her as her breasts.
Since then I've been aware that I rarely notice women's breasts unless they are literally thrust under my nose, by a woman standing or sitting close to me. Then I look and find them exciting to look at, and feel a little embarrassed and ashamed at looking, but generally I don't notice them at all. With flesh and blood women I'm attracted to I notice faces, bigness of bottom, length of leg and torso, and hip to waist ratio, but hardly ever breasts. It was only after taking and cropping a photo of my friend Berni that I noticed that she had quite big tits, and I've known her at least six years. The same holds for every woman I've known never mind desired.
I'm not abnormal - I like the feel and weight of a woman's breasts in my hands, but I don't seem to have the obsession that most men have, "Gawd look at the tits on her", "She's got lovely knockers", "how big are her bristols?" etc.
Even in pornography. I mostly couldn't say what size the breasts of most of my favourite models are, and I've never wanked over a model only because of her tits, In 35 years of buying and using porn I can think of only six models I've collected who had big breasts I found impressive and attrative, and only two I strongly fancied. On the other hand, I find a
flat chest on a woman sexy in itself, and have wanked over models I don't otherwise like because of their boyish chests.
I've liked a few models with big tits like H0ney Bane and Trinity Loren, but largely that was because of their pretty faces and general plumpness. Sadly, Trinity Loren died a terribly young death over 10 years ago and Bane's life has been chaos for most of the last 30 years .
H0ney Bane (D0nna Boylan), former singer with punk band
Fatal M1crobes, pregnant here in
the mid-80s
Trinity Loren: real name J0yce McPherson
Here are photos of the only models I've liked partly because of the size and shape of their breasts. They are Chl0e Vevr1er (1990s-2000s), Pat Wynn (80s, she started when she was already in handsome middle age), D1anne Wynn (no relation, late 80s-90s), D0nna Ambr0se (early 1980s - present), Devon Dan1els (late 80s), and my favourite, and the only one I suspect I would fancy in real life, M1llie Minchen, aka M1llicent Sn0w (late 80s).
D1anne Wynn
Chloe Vevr1er
Pat Wynn: real name Sally F0rina, a much better name
Devon Dan1els
and two photos each of my favourites:
D0nna Ambr0se, aka Dan1ca C0llins
mid 80s:
and 2008:
M1llie Minch1n, aka M1llicent Sn0w
late 80s
Mid 2000s
Millie was probably my favourite, the sort of face I like, dark haired, pale skinned, quite tall at 5'9" (most big breasted models are short) , long limbed and formerly with dark almost black wavy hair. Lovely.